snow snow snow

been here for nearly 4 months.. and the 1st snow of winter has come... am so excited.. and i can go out in my winter boots ... am thinking of getting a black leather flat boots too.. i will shop around first...

also i need to get 2 paris of skinny jeans.. so that i can have them tugged into the boots..will look sexy wor... my breast have started forming and its a smalla cup now.. more like a teenage girl having puberty. It feels painful to the touch also.

I have been reassigned a new car.. and i luv it.. its a Benz..thats update for now...

i done my hair...

got it rebonded.. cost me close to $130 and 3 hr job at the saloon. Am so happy with it now.

my appetite is still not good.. i can hardly finish a bowl of noodle now.. ate half and felt so full.

my weight is now at 142lbs.. drop slightly.. guess i will hit 140 soon before i get back to Europe again. :)

lazing about now....

Might be

making a trip to home country... if all goes as plan.. wed i will be in... might meet up with some friends... still undecided....Mabel thats the reason for my MSN

hormoness...weight

got back on my dose of Antiandrogens and estrogen .... have a very light hearted feeling... head feel so high.. slight headaches on and off...

i lost weight...!!! thats another news.. i am now at 143lbs.. lost at least 10 lbs... i am targeting to hit 130 at least so that my BMI will be 19.. current its at 20.5 and ppl have been commenting did i slim down??.. i smiled..and shrugged my shoulder...

no wonder my pants and clothes seem to be looser nowadays.. and sizes of new clothes i had to get one size down..

US...

halfway in my trip...my work item is done.. i managed to settle my US bank account opening and US laptop issued so now i need to figure should i Fedex the home country laptop back home and use my new US issued set?..

anyway i will think about this later...

Shopping is great in Big Apple, really good place to shop.. stores are open till 9 pm and opened on Sundays....

bad jet lag..

bad case of jet lag.. today was better.. I luv the clothing stores here.. had many nice pieces at a cheap price here in the US malls. luvly.

I think i will like my time here once i move over here permanently next year.. later i am meeting the housing agent lady to show me around and guidelines to get a place...

✈✈✈✈ To New York

All bags packed and i left the hotel at 7am, settled all charges, the bulk of the bill was charged and prepaid by the company so the burden on my Credit Card will not be so great. So glad all this was done.

Returned the car at the Hertz car return bay, as it was too early there was no one to recevied the car , and i had to drop off the key at the car key return bin. Hopefully i dun get charged for that small little scratch on the side mirror, the past 2.5 months i spent in Dresden was nice and fullfilling. Had my own personel time to do my own stuff and dress up and i will return for more.

Oh I really hate it when i had to make a last min trip anywhere. What happen was i had a domestic ticket from Dresden to Frankfurt, and to ensure that i used the ticket , had to reorganise some of the flight times. In the end , all was settled. Domestic ticket had its own ETicket number, while my Frankfurt>IAD>Albany and return had another ETicket number.. what does that mean.. that means running about for me.

At Dresden , i could not get the boarding passes for the US leg as it was on UA and it was on another ETicket number. So in the end when i arrived at Frankfurt, I had to go to the main terminal where all the normal passengers were queuing to checked in UA flights throughtout the day .. it was already 1030am when i arrived at the counter, and the place was packed.. and everyone in the queue seems to have 2 pcs or more baggage to checkin. I was gosh.. i will miss my flight definite. US flights had so many security questions to be asked.. etc etc. Questions like.. did you packed your bags? Did your bags leave you? the Laptop is your own laptop? etc etc.

at last the staff at Frabkfurt asked who is on the 1220 pm flight pls step up to counter... i bypass the long queues...When i got my boarding pass at last .. again no seat number... i was so concerned as i encountered a same situation 3 months ago on Lufthansa flights. In the end at the previous incident i was offloaded the flight as i was the 4th passenger without a seat number. And they rerouted me to Leipzig Airport which was 120km away by taxi. So i tot here i go again.. i am going to be stuck in frankfurt.. and miss my connection on Continental Air/UA at Albany...

Got my boarding pass from the main counter, and headed towards the gate. I had to clear customs again. At Dresden i had to take off my jacket too to reveal my ladies top underneath.. and one of the customs officer noticed my top and was looking at me. I just cleared customs quickly and put back on my jacket and cap. I was also wearing my cap i bought from Prague too. Really had a feminine look when i looked myself in the washroom's mirror. At Frankfurt i did not have to remove my jacket and i went thru the metal detector gate with no issue. I was glad.

Proceeded to look for my departure gate and found it , gate A55. I hope i get a seat number, that was what i was instructed at the main checkin counter. In the end i got my boarding pass with a seat number assigned..yoshhh. Then a funny incident happen.. as i was queuing up to enter the gate.. there were three staff managing the gate, and one of them called to me.. Madam , you can check in here.. and she quickly change to sir.. I smilled at her and said its ok i am used to it already. ❤❤

On board the plane , i found my seat and quickly settled in. Then the lady beside me ask the stewardess if she could move to the seat on her left as it was empty, and she mentioned " so that me and this lady could have more space." "this lady" she was mentioning was me... I was delighted ♥♥ .. i pass as a lady.. i looked down.. and pretended not to hear it....

Reach Washington and got my borading pass for the next flight after walking up and down terminal A... damm instruction from Frankfurt was for me to go to Counter A31 to get boarding pass.. but when i arrived there no one... so i made my way to tmy boarding gate A2 and pass a self check in machine.. and in the end i got my pass printed after talking to someone on the phone there...

Reached destination.. got my rental car...and got to my hotel safely..and had a lovely hot bath soaked in for 30 mins..

enough of words... pictures now...

tomorrow i fly..

flying soon... first time travelling on my own to New York.. I will be flying via From Frankfurt via Washington , then finally to my destination Albany.

Hotel and Car is all ready.. and i have to pick up my car at the airport.. Problem is i dun have any USD on me... so i guess i will have to do a interbank withdrawal in US when i reach washington..

So excited... Bags all packed up and tonight i will do a final round to see if i forgot anything... most impt is my GPS... i need to have it with me on my carry on baggage... I am fearful my bags will get lost... i hope it does not.

Always no confident of all these transist flights which i have to connect and connect.

I was also getting myself off Reductil .. nearly complete the course of 3 months.. left with 4 pills which i doubt will last my business trip. So past few days i have been cycling on and off it.. till today.. i did not take any.. was terrible, i was dozing off in meetings.. and last night i slept at 830pm.. and got up today at 6am... nearly 10 hrs of sleep continous. Gosh.

Once i get my next course then i will start on it again when i get back from the states.

♥ ♣♥ ♣ ☹☹ felt so emo now ..♥ ♣♥ ♣

suddenly.. felt like crying... dun know what happen.. but i am stress .. guess its the work and the upcoming trip..

just got back to hotel and i cried out... sob for five mins... and then i cool down...i think its the hormones playing with my mind...but i also suspect was the meeting just now i had with the guys from the US office and the words that was used hurt me so how or rather..

(◕^^◕)

♤ ♣ ♧ ♡ colored my hair ❤ ❥ ❦ ❧

to a lighter brown... i hope to get it to the correct tone i want...

Was in Prague

over the weekend was in Prague.. nice litttle city.. heard many horror stories of pickpockets etc... but thankfully did not encounter any...

Bought a cute cap from the C&A store in Prague.. i like it the moment i saw it , was a must have it urge.



some pics of Prague... sorry.. nothing with me in other mode... :)

started my 1st voice training tonight..

and its tiring on the throat man..... i just did ten mins.. and i was out... doing what Evelyn is teaching and she is quite successful i must say... so heres her blog and her youtube handle is evevoices.

Her Blog

Voice training...

ok .. decided to start training my voice... really admire candifla ...need to practise falsetto

♀♀ Weekend ♀♀

was raining since noon times on friday .. till today sat noon.. 24hrs of rain.. gosh...week in office was great.. I bought two tops this week.. nice.. €3,99 each.. I am looking out for a rain trenchcoat to go with the weather here.

Today was in town and also looked at some of the trenchcoats or duffle coat.. the design look nice.. and i wanted to get one... but the price was €69,99 .. i will have to think about it.



Weighted myself too.. and seems weight is stagnant.. i need to loose some hiaz....

ೋೋ▶ ▷ ▸ ▹ Specs... ◀ ◁ ◂ ◃ಧಿಧಿ

ok i decided to make a pair of black frame glasses... just to suit me when i am dress up. Cause a friend's pic in glasses looks sexy and cute...it does make the face rounder. I have been using contacts all these while and so .. glasses it shall be..

i got two tops from the store in town... white and black..


my pills

☂there are real bitches in this world..

was skyping with a guy friend who i knew back home .. and he was telling me about a lady who use to report to me directly back in home office. She was saying all these things about me having a r/s with another lady in my grp who is also a direct reportee to me, about how i side with her things etc... oh come on.. pls.. if you are so capable BITCH.. then you would have been promoted so long ago and dun use all these bad mouthing about me and her... if you really know me well enough.. i and her can never be together...☂☂

Damm bitch..what happen is that this yr when i was doing her annual appraisal, she was hinting to me that a promotion for her is to be given... come on.. there are better performance ppl in my grp compared to you BITCH!!.. and in the end the appraisial was done halfway as she got heated up and left the meeting room.. i was stumped.. ok so be it.. i reported this to my superior.. who later told me she did her appraisal with her... BITCH.. i told my boss off and said that she reports to me.. not him.. and my boss say its ok.. i say ok.. its your problem and you handle it when i am no longer there...Cause i know that she intended to use the resignation ruse to gain a promotion.. but knowing my style .. i always tell those ppl who submit their resignation letters to me.. good luck in the new job... so if she was serious she would have finished up the whole session with me.. BITCH...

oh well its my former's boss problem now.. not me.. good riddance. ☂

☁☂☁☂ why why...

i am so tired... slept the whole day today... like for 3 to 4 hrs... ❧❧

should i be mad or happy that someone dressed me up as a gal long long time ago when i was just barely 5 to 6 years old... i know that ,caused i have a vivid memory of that incident and how i cried and struggled to refuse to put in that dress .. and my mom told me that also when i was older .. so its true...i think its because of this incident that i am what i am right now.. this confuse state of mind imprinted subconsciously..♂♀

oh well.. life still goes on and no use blaming anyone.. i am happy now with how i live.. and things that are happening to me and my life now..

each family has its dark secrets and i always wanted a perfect family.. but it seems its not really true... my family is sort of messy i would say.. and nothing more will i mention about it..tot i still luv my mom.. i would not have left my home country and be here now.. its all so predestined ❧

mood now is so low.. hiaz.. sobbing as i type this ☁☂

♥♥♥ Samstag or Saturday ♥♥♥ ☺☺

i need to start brushing up on my new langauge here.. company has 100 hrs of classes for me and i have not started any yet.. i am so fearful of losing my Japanese.☺☺

Today was 14C.. and went for a run, was a good run, need to maintain my weight and trying to shed some off too..♀♀.. wanted to go out for some shopping.. but in the end bought nothing ☼.. and the weather was so hot...

did my nails before going out... need to let them "breathe" for a while...





Preparing to go out... ☺

some of my photos...

took some pics.. with my webcam.. sorry... its bad.. and grainy.. but i find it sexy ...tell me how i look ..really... i know some have been reading here... thought i dun update this site so often previously .. now its better right??... tell me...tell me.... i am such a slut.. hehe lighten my hair color... gosh it will make me look fairer




tell me ....

i need to catch some sleep.. have not been sleeping well these past few nights... only managed 5 hrs sleep nightly... and last night woke up at 3am here.. as it was too cold.... this morning was like the first sign of autumm.. it was 10C today...

the hair dyed which i did my hair now... cost only €3.75(SGD$7) .. got also a masscara.. my current one has used up... threw it away...



the Lucido-l Hair Oil i use for my hair.. and eye cream for my eyes before i nap nap...

Its getting cold...

its 12C now here.. and getting colder day by day.. trees are starting to change colors now... I am so happy with the new set of photos i took... :)

still on the regime of losing weight... i think the scale that i used couple of weeks back was not accurate.. i am currently 68.. hehehe.. still more to go...

i want to do some whitening on my skin tone.. need to bring a shade down at least... :) to be fairer

lost weight....

now i am at 140 lbs... i weigh using a scale in the electrical store here... i am so happy... no wonder my pants were all loose

lovely day....

a lovely day this morning.. cool morning... had my shower... conditioned my hair .. also did a enema. Had a feeling of bloatness for the past few days, it cleared me fully.

I felt slimmer now, but i have no way to confirm the weight i am at right now. I think i am allegic to Comfy Sanitary pads.. had rashes at my crotch area.. oh well, i need to change another brand then.

Colored my hair..

i need to change to another color next month... the hair dye sold here is cheap too... not ex unlike my home country... gotten the makeup remover also.. forgot to bring it from home...

pants which i have here now is looser.. that means i have lost weight again.... i think now i am about 65kg... but i have no scale here to weight myself... its going to be a surprise when i find a scale here to weigh myself...

i am wearing those pant type panties.. lacy ones and a tube top underneath my clothings now when i am in office.. not obvious as i have a jacket or sweater always on...it makes me feel sexy and also as a reminder to watch my diet during lunch and dinner... i have gotten ued to skipping breakfast now... and dinner too...

Weekend...

dressed up again.. and i bought shoes for daily use... great price for these...i luv them..especially that flat boots...i am trying real hard to loose some weight , and guess i did the beige pants here you see is very loose.. when i was in town , the pants was sitting on my hip bones... used to be tight...

Flat pumps - $9Euro




Boots - $10Euro


these leave in hair repair only 0.45Euro after rebate!!

lovely place

i love the place here.. i can dress up and venture out and no one will bat a eye at me... sugoii desune... the weather here is perfect , but i cant get use to the food here.. and i think i will be slimmer after 2 months here.. my hair lenght is now shoulder level and i luv it... I just gotten the Schwarzkopf Gliss Hair Repair and it made my hair really soft.. and its cheap.. only 0,45Euro... hehehe had a 2Euro rebate per bottle, i will be getting another 5 bottles.

i need to get a weighting scale here... doko?

now its the time

to really loose weight... away from home.. and distraction. So far i have managed to loose about 5lbs... currently when i weigh myself its 147 lbs.. i need to get a weighing scale here. My clothes are all here now. I need to get the pair of pink heels repaired. and also rewash all clothings as its been a long time since i washed it.

my brows are trimmed proper , i need to get my nails buff up this weekend.

oh well blog when i have time again...matta ne

Weight is now 148lbs..

just weight last night.. i am so happy.... another 8lbs more to go to hit 140....

weightless

weighed myself this morning.. went down to my weight of 150lbs again... i need to hit 140lbs at least... 10 more to go.. gambatte ne

time to change...

i will be moving soon.. for a year or so to Europe... its for work... hiaz... dun know what sort of life it will be there... but i think i will love to get a pair of boots to wear when i am there.. and dress out.. as no one will know me at all there.. it makes it so much easier....

many of my female colleagues have commented on my skin... they even suspect i used face powder..which i did not at all.. no way am i using face powder when i am in male clothing... hehehehehe.. i was happy

Long time.. since i updated

got a couple of stuff recently... hiaz.. i have been gainning some weight... i need to get down to my ideal weight of 62kg as i am 1.78 tall....

bought Reductil from the local pharmacy here.. and started on it thursday..

amazing.. i did not feel like eating at all the whole day.. and had heaps of energy...i weighted myself on Sunday yesterday and found i had lost 3kg... great... but i still force myself to eat 2 slices of bread at least .. else.. it would be bad for body to loose so much weight at one go....



also got my Birth Control Pills for the hormones... helps me to develop small breasts... i have a cup A now....

my skin...

i think this is the 8th lady that complimented on my skin in office already over the past year...

some of the ladies tot i was using face powder or some BBcream.. and wanted to make sure, one of them the other day came up to me to ask me about my skin.. and say.. dun bluff let me feel.. i say go ahead dah....

she felt it .. i blushed like mad.. all red.. then she say ..no face powder.. nothing lei... i said yaa... then what you expect i told you ladies already i dun use anything on my face... ✌✌