☁☂☁☂ why why...

i am so tired... slept the whole day today... like for 3 to 4 hrs... ❧❧

should i be mad or happy that someone dressed me up as a gal long long time ago when i was just barely 5 to 6 years old... i know that ,caused i have a vivid memory of that incident and how i cried and struggled to refuse to put in that dress .. and my mom told me that also when i was older .. so its true...i think its because of this incident that i am what i am right now.. this confuse state of mind imprinted subconsciously..♂♀

oh well.. life still goes on and no use blaming anyone.. i am happy now with how i live.. and things that are happening to me and my life now..

each family has its dark secrets and i always wanted a perfect family.. but it seems its not really true... my family is sort of messy i would say.. and nothing more will i mention about it..tot i still luv my mom.. i would not have left my home country and be here now.. its all so predestined ❧

mood now is so low.. hiaz.. sobbing as i type this ☁☂